A does not reclaim the nights you came stumbling house at 3 in the early morning with alcohol leaking from your pores.
A does not reclaim the lies you informed while looking me straight in the eyes without a stutter in your sentence.
A does not reclaim the luggage you dropped onto my shoulders when I was much too young.
I’m delighted you have the ability to self-reflect, to see the discomfort you have actually triggered. I’m pleased you are putting in the effort to alter your life. I’m pleased you are attempting to much better yourself.
But an apology is not going to make whatever you did to me all right. It is not going to remove the discomfort you caused upon me. It is not going to stop the headaches, the flashbacks, the continuous worry.
An apology is good however it does not suggest you get to stroll right back into my world. It does not suggest you get absolved of your sins.
It’s insulting for you to believe a ten-minute apology offsets the injury you put me through for.
It draws you feel guilty. It draws you have actually lost sleep over this mess. Truthfully, you feel guilty. You lose sleep. You feel awful for what you’ve done.
A does not reclaim the nights I got up sobbing into my pillowcase or yelling at shadows. A does not reclaim the nasty things you texted me, things I need to bring around with me permanently however you can not even keep in mind stating since you blacked out.
If you were enabled to treat me like shit for months, I’m enabled to disregard your messages. I’m enabled to obstruct your number. I’m enabled to neglect your apology. If you suggest every word, #steeee
I do not care. Those words are useless. Those words are coming way far too late.
You can keep stating youbut you did. You can keep stating due to the fact that I do too. You can keep validating your actions or you can confess you remained in the incorrect the whole time however it does not make a distinction to me.
I do not wish to hear it. I do not wish to be included with anymore drama with you. I do not wish to combat. I do not wish to talk. I do not wish to handle you.
I wish to proceed. I wish to put what you have actually done behind me which has actually been difficult sometimes, however I am attempting. I am attempting to forget you. I am attempting to look after my psychological health. I am attempting to recover.
If you are severe about how bad you feel for what you put me through throughout our relationship, the very best thing you can do is leave me the hell alone. I’m never ever going to forgive you. Possibly, if you invest adequate time cracking away at your toxicity, you can forgive yourself.